This soundtrack was well-curated by the standards of the late 90s, and as a result retains real musical integrity more than 10 years later. ~Brett Colley, amazon.com
Life really sucks for a group of gay and lesbian teenagers living in Los Angeles. Their parents kicked them out, they're broke and bored, their lovers cheat on them, they're harassed by gay-bashers. If things are going to be this way, maybe suicide isn't a bad idea; at least not in the mind of Andy, our major protagonist, who gives the film its title by describing himself as "totally fuc**d up."
Los Angeles. Vibrant city, great opportunity. Here romantic Veronica hopes to find a decent guy. And she meets two people at once! They are so different, but both love it! Tormented by contradictions, Veronika decides by all means keep both. And she finds out! But when the two all worked out, there is a third …
The third film from Gregg Araki's famous "apocalyptic trilogy for teens."
It looks like a gibberish, but that's life. Lives of young people who by fate were there to live one day. An ordinary day, full of insecurity, doubt, fear, drugs, rap music, unrestrained drunkenness, death and love. Passionate, insane, and on an even more terrible love. They have no one living anywhere else …
Born in 1972 in Kansas, eight-year-old Neil McCormick (portrayed by Chase Ellison as a boy and Joseph Gordon-Levitt as an adolescent) and Brian Lackey (George Webster and Brady Corbet) are sexually abused by their baseball coach (Bill Sage).
Neil, whose homosexuality becomes apparent at an early age (he was preoccupied with male models depicted in his mother's Playgirl magazines), interprets the coach's abuse as an initiation into sexuality. He becomes sexually compulsive, particularly attracted to middle-aged men. Eventually, Neil drifts into petty crime and becomes a prostitute.
Brian reacts to the abuse by developing psychogenic amnesia and forgetting the events, for many years suffering from violent nose bleeds. In his teen years, Brian becomes nerdish and withdrawn, perceived by others as nearly asexual. Strange, unsettling memories in recurring dreams lead Brian to suspect that he and another boy may have been abducted by aliens.
While trying to untangle his confused memories at 19 years of age, Brian sees a photo of his childhood baseball team, recognizing a young Neil as the boy from his own bizarre dreams. Eventually, the two young men meet for the first time in over a decade, uncovering the secrets they share as well as beginning to heal one another.